By Misty Lack

September 24, 2022

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Substance Abuse in Travel Nursing: My Recovery

Content Warning: descriptions of drug use are mentioned in this article. If you or some you know are struggling with substance abuse, get help here.

September 20, 2018

Earlier this week, a Facebook memory of me asking for prayers popped up. I was going in front of the Diversion Program, asking to complete the program. On September 20, 2018, I successfully graduated. I no longer had to wake up and call to see if I had to drug test that day. I didn’t have to attend my nurse support group, and I did not have to make three weekly recovery meetings. My recovery had now become voluntary. 

My new way of living

I enjoy this new way of living, working on myself, and talking with like-minded people about everyday struggles. Today, with my struggles, I find the solution and do not drown myself with drugs and/or alcohol. It is very rare that I get triggered, but it does happen. For instance, as weird as it sounds while having labs drawn this month, the cold feeling of the alcohol pad on my skin triggered me. I immediately called my sponsor, and we talked about it. It is imperative that you do not keep secrets with this disease. Secrets will take you back out into the whirlwind of addiction.

Know your limits and accept them

Today I work in dialysis. It is a safe environment for me. Emergency nursing has been my passion for a very long time, but it is not safe for me. I am not sure if I could handle putting Morphine in someone else’s veins and seeing the response in their eyes. Good self-insight is a must. Know your limits and accept them. 

It has been a privilege to share my story and process. Hopefully, I have reached that still-suffering addict and opened others’ eyes to the disease of addiction among nurses. Moving forward, I would like to have some peers share their stories. 

WE DO RECOVER ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Please reach out if you or someone you know is struggling with drug addiction. SAMHSA’s National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357) (also known as the Treatment Referral Routing Service), or TTY: 1-800-487-4889 is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders. This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations.

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By Misty Lack

July 20, 2022

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Substance Abuse in Travel Nursing: Part 2

Content Warning: descriptions of drug use are mentioned in this article. If you or some you know are struggling with substance abuse, get help here.

I wanted to let you all know how this started.

As I said in the first article, I suffer from chronic pain. During a clinical in nursing school, I found a pain pill in a patient’s bed. I said to myself, “You either get to be a pain patient or a nurse… You can’t be both!” I reported the find & went on with my day. While working charge nurse in the ER, a nurse left a patient’s prescription bottle with 100+ pain pills. I made it a point to tell the nurses not to set each other up for failure. Fast forward to 2014. I reported a nurse for possibly diverting. I emailed the director of the department & the VP of Nursing. NOTHING HAPPENED!! They let her quit. That planted a seed in my head.

“Well, that was easy!”

The next time I wasted a narcotic, I didn’t throw it in the shapes. I put it in my pocket. When I got home that morning, I self-administered my first IM injection. That was the beginning of the end for me. It felt amazing & I had my own dirty little secret. It wasn’t a week later I was shooting up in the bathroom. My job performance took a hit, and I transferred to another department. It was there that I sunk deeper & deeper into my addiction. Using multiple times throughout my shift. One of the nurses reported me to the director of the department. They watched me, ran reports, got called in, and questioned me about discrepancies. But, in the end, GUESS WHAT?!? They let me quit and didn’t report me to the BON. NOTHING HAPPENED!! To me, anyway. I walked away & my addiction continued to get more reckless & more dangerous.

2 yrs later… that sweet young nurse that reported me… she was found dead in a bathroom from an overdose.

I’m my experience… you cannot stop using by yourself. If you are not willing to self-report, you need to walk away & quit. You WILL either get caught or kill yourself.

There is not enough self-willpower. Your addiction is more powerful than you.

I, too, thought I was different. I was in control. But I wasn’t. I was just another junkie chasing that high.

The thing about the disease of addiction is that it does not  Discriminate. Red, yellow, black, white, her, him, tall, short, skinny, fat, rich, poor, happy, sad, the victim, the perpetrator, that disease is just waiting to attack when you least expect it.

Please reach out. Ask for guidance. Find a 12-step program. Pick up the phone. There is a way out & we do recover.

I’ll leave you with this. One of the 12 steps literature says, “any addict can stop using, lose the desire to use, and find a new way of life.

Thank you for reading,

Misty Lack RN

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June 24, 2022

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Drug Abuse & Mental Health Within Travel Nursing

Travel nurse veteran Misty Lack was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Severe Opioid Dependence. She was her own drug dealer during the two years she abused drugs. Misty lived out loud & wanted to share her story with nurses who may be spiraling out of control & don’t think there is a way out. You do not want to miss this inspiring live session.

If you or some you know are struggling with substance abuse get help here.

My substance abuse story:

Hi! My name is Misty, and I am a recovering drug addict.

My clean date is February 29, 2016, and I am truly grateful for that. A couple of months ago, I reached out to The Gypsy Nurse with the topic idea of nurses struggling with addiction and mental health.

I was duel diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Severe Opioid Dependence.

On February 8, 2016, I was escorted to Human Resources and questioned about “tampered vials” of Morphine. I lied, of course, and apologized for the inconvenience. I was escorted out of the hospital via security.

To read more, click here.

About Misty Lack (recovering.nurse.misty@gmail.com):

I Love Jesus! I am an Amazing Aunt, Devoted Nurse & Grateful Recovering IV Drug Addict!! I’ve been a nurse for 22yrs and drug-free since 2/29/16.

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By Misty Lack

May 3, 2022

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Substance Abuse in Travel Nursing: My Story

Content Warning: descriptions of drug use is mentioned in this article if you or some you know are struggling with substance abuse get help here.

My substance abuse story:

Hi! My name is Misty, and I am a recovering drug addict.

My clean date is February 29, 2016, and for that, I am truly grateful. A couple of months ago, I reached out to The Gypsy Nurse with the topic idea of nurses struggling with addiction and mental health.

I was duel diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Severe Opioid Dependence.

On Feb 8, 2016, I was escorted to Human Resources and questioned about “tampered vials” of Morphine. I lied, of course, and apologized for the inconvenience. I was escorted out of the hospital via security.

When I pulled out of the hospital, I was numb.

I didn’t have any idea what I was going to do. Would it just go away, or is the gig up? I received a text message from my recruiter telling me to get a drug test, but the closest place was 45mins away, and it was 1630. So, I was told to get there first thing in the morning.

The next morning my phone was going off

With text messages, phone calls, and emails from the travel agency. I was praying this was just a bad dream. I opened the email, and there it was, in bold letters “We will have to report even if negative and BON will investigate because not all suspected diverters actually ingest the meds.”

Oops, they accidentally sent me the email that all company heads had been responding to. Well, it was official- I was busted! I forwarded the email to a nurse I had worked with who is also an attorney. First question: Are you safe? And then said, we must go to the Board.

I got busted on a Monday

I talked to an attorney on Tuesday, drove 2 hours to get back home and in his office on Wed, and sat in front of the Director for the diversion program on Friday. The attorney wanted me to call and talk to another nurse who reported to the board for diversion.

“How honest do I need to be?”

After hanging up, I called her right back and said, “How honest do I need to be?” She said, “As honest as you’re ready to be!” I didn’t know if I would be arrested or, worse, lose my license. I sat down and, for the first time, told my story.

I told my substance abuse story-

I admitted that I was diverting drugs and shooting up for about 2 yrs. When I was done, she smiled and acknowledged how refreshing it was to hear the gut-wrenching truth and not be given excuses or lies. She explained how the diversion program works and asked if I was interested.  There was one reservation I also suffered from chronic pain. I would not be able to be in the program and take narcotics of any kind. I cried and explained that I really do suffer from pain. She looked at me with empathy and said, “I’m sorry!”

I spent the next 17 days tapering myself off any and all mind-altering substances. I officially started the program on March 1, 2016.

My story is not for everyone.

I get that. You will find me repulsive, unethical, a disgrace, and several other adjectives. I am not seeking your approval. My hope is to open your eyes. Do not sign that you witnessed a waste unless you witnessed it. I banked on my colleagues whom I worked with for 15 years to sign regardless.

My story is for you!

The nurse that is scared and can’t find a way out. The nurse that wakes up every day saying, “I’m not using today!” and then finds yourself with a needle in your arm within minutes of clocking into work. There is a way out. If I can do it, you can do it too. You just have to admit that there is a problem and ask for help.

I am a member of a 12-step program that keeps me accountable. You can find me on Instagram or email me. #wedorecover

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